Happy spring! Today is perfect. I’m actually writing this from my patio table, newly cleaned from a winter’s worth of grime. It is renewed, and so am I.
Earlier today I had the pleasure of speaking to the entrepreneurship class at NBCCD. Even three years on I often have difficulty thinking of myself as an entrepreneur, or as an artist, or -especially- as successful. I think of the struggle, of the quiet times, of the bank accounts, of the comparisons and competitions and forget that it probably looks pretty different from the outside. (This is not to say things are bad. I’m happy! I’m moving forward. I’m achieving my goals, step by step. I’m a work in progress.)
Nevertheless every time I am asked to speak, I struggle with the same questions. Can I do this? Do I have something to teach? Is it safe or smart to give away so much of the knowledge I’ve accumulated? The professor, Craig, asked how I reconcile my questions with the decision to say yes. The truth is, all of my questions are rooted in fears. Fear of failure, fear of judgment, maybe even fear of success. I told them, I don’t want to be that person who says “no” to every opportunity and then wonders why nothing big ever happens. And really, what is there to be afraid of? I want to say yes. To, in the words of Justin & Mary, dream big and do bigger. I am not afraid.
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined. — Thoreau